i have too much history in this journal
that i really can't stand.

so i'm rid of it.

new journal:


www.livejournal.com/~laskon



i already added all who are on my friends list,
so just add me back.


i just can't be reminded of all that's happened anymore.

it's not so easy for me to be a romantic.
You start off that way, and,
after you've been
screwed over a few times...
You... you forget about all your
delusional ideas, and you
just take what comes into your life.
That's not even true, I haven't been...
screwed over, I've just had too many...
blah relationship. They weren't mean,
they cared for me, but...
they were no real...
connection, or excitement.
At least, not from my side.


You know...
it's not even that, I was...
I was fine.
Until I read your fucking book!
It stirred shit out from you,
It reminded me how...
genuinely romantic I was,
how I had so much hope in things and...
now it's like...
I don't believe in anything
that relates to love,
I don't feel things for people anymore.


In a way...
I put all my romanticism
into that one night
and I was never able
to feel all this again.


Like...
somehow this night took
things away from me and...
I expressed them to you and
you took them with you!
It made me feel cold,
like if love wasn't for me!


You know what?
Reality and love are almost
contradictory for me.
It's funny...
Every single of my ex-es...
they're now married!
Man go out with me,
we break up,
and then they get married!
And later they call me to thank
me for teaching them what love is, and...
that I taught them to care
and respect women!



You know, I want to kill them!
Why didn't they ask me to marry them?
I would have said "No",
but at least they could have asked!!!
But it's my fault, I know that
it's my fault, because...
I never felt it was the right man.
Never!


But what does it mean the right man?
The love of your life?
The concept is absurd,
the idea that we can only be
complete with another person is...



EVIL!


Right?


You know, I guess I've been
heart broken too many times.

And then I recovered.
So now, you know,
form the starts, I make no effort.


Because I know exactly what hap...



{oh, celine}

BOOKS I WANT TO READ!!
* the pleasure of my company by steve martin
* the final solution by michael chabon
* the Ha-Ha by dave king (i'm unsure of this one, but hey)
* junk by william s. burroughs
* the fuck up by arthur nersesian (because jesse eisenberg
is going to be in the movie, hottie pants)
*ash wednesday by ethan hawke
*grab on to me tightly as if i knew the way by bryan charles
*firmin by sam savage

not in that order, but...WAH! books!

i HEART my new phone.
<3!!!

honestly, there is no one more beautiful than this woman.

we decided that we don't like tank top as a name
for our beautiful new cat. look at how BOOTIFUL this cat is!

Poll #719285 Name My Cat!
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 19

his name should be...

Cystic fibrosis (CF) is a genetic disease affecting approximately 30,000 children and adults in the United States.

A quest for the cure still stands. A donation to the CF Foundation will help fund the research and discoveries that are forming the front line of exciting new medical treatments. The understanding of this disease has rapidly accelerated in the past few years due, in large part, to science supported by the CF Foundation.

The mission of the CF Foundation is to assure the development of the means to cure and control CF and to improve the quality of life for those with the disease. It funds medical research and care programs which are improving the length and quality of life for people with CF. Not too long ago CF was always fatal in childhood, but better treatment methods developed over the past 20 years have increased the average lifespan of CF patients to nearly 30 years.

Please help me with donations to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation....

Cystic Fibrosis Foundation
425 Broad Hollow Rd, Suite 318
Melville, NY 11747
www.cff.org

In loving memory of Dale Lee Weeks
Novemeber 17, 1956 - July 6, 2005
Beloved son of Georgia and the late David Weeks.
Devoted father of Leonard and Jessica.
Cherished brother of Jeffrey, Kevin and Brian.